Bittersweet

Thanks to all who have lovingly inquired about our adoption.  I realized tonight that I posted the grand total for our adoption auction on Facebook but not here.  Due to the generosity of our donors  bidders, we raised $5,000!!!  That brings us to a grand total of $13,000 - over half way!!!  We could not be more grateful.

It has taken me about six weeks to gather the courage to put this next part in writing: our adoption will be delayed another year.

Wes' mold toxicity diagnosis changed our lives for the better.  After 5 years of suffering, his diagnosis led to healing.  We had a great summer and fall - I finally had my husband back!  Wes returned to work this fall and loved the new career he started with Coors.

Sadly in mid-November, Wes injured his back, which resulted in a bulging and ruptured disc.  In theory, his first career as a butcher weakened his lower back.  Because of his height, he spent a lot of time hunched over.  He has had a pinched nerve in that area several times, but rest and chiropractic care took care of it in a matter of days.

This time around, days led to weeks...which have turned into months.  Chiropractic care,
acupuncture, PT, steroid injections...nothing has brought relief.  After overcoming so much, this injury has been DEVASTATING.  Before Wes' mold toxicity diagnosis, we had come to terms with the fact that life would always be hard, Wes would always be sick.  His diagnosis and subsequent treatment brought healing and hope.  We began to dream again.  Black and white turned into color.  Each hope and dream felt like the building blocks of our new life.  Wes' unrelenting back injury knocked that tower down.

I love Wes so much and I long to see him thrive again.  I long for this burden to be lifted.  The constant pain and restrictions chip away at him daily.  He longs to provide, serve, and play.

So what does this have to do with postponing our adoption another year?

1. We need two healthy parents.

2. The financial impact of Wes not working and of his medical bills has been significant.

3. I am working too much right how to even think about bringing another kiddo into our lives.

I would like to go a little deeper.  On January 8, I went to our weekly church plant gathering.  James must have been with my parents and Wes stayed home due to pain.  As we sang worship songs and prayed, silent tears rolled down my face.  Then someone prayed specifically for us and the flood gates opened.  I began to full body sob. And I could not stop.  The sorrow and the stress all poured out at once.  Our dear friends lavished love and support upon me.  Once everyone else went into another part of the house to eat, Hannah (one of my best friends) sat with me as I gushed.  I shared with her our immediate needs.  I cannot articulate how difficult it is to be in a season of need for so long.  In my experience, it is easier to serve than to need helper over and over and over again.

At 11:00pm that night Hannah called.  She stated that she and her husband Sean (one of Wes' best friends) wanted us to move in with them.  They offered to build a kitchenette in their basement so we could catch up financially.  I wish I had words to describe how I felt: relieved, grateful, excited, hopeful.  But one thing saddened me: we could not do our home study while living with them.  Of course I knew we would have to wait until Wes' back to heal, but moving meant definitely waiting.  I cannot find any research to support this, but my body felt like I had experienced a pregnancy loss.  I wish I knew how to describe it, but I experienced physical and emotional symptoms.  My mind, heart, and body thought a baby would arrive soon, and then loss struck.

What I view as obstacles, God uses to direct our path.  Each "obstacle" will determine which baby joins our family.  Pretty incredible.

So we move April 15.  My gratitude far outweighs my sadness.  We have INCREDIBLE friends.  What a beautiful picture of the body of Christ.

My parents, Wes' mom, my uncle and aunt, and countless friends have carried us during this time.  And despite the turmoil, God continues to fill me with hope.

Please pray for Wes.  Of course he feels "at fault", which is absolutely not true.  Even as I read back through my post, I fear that I have painted that picture.  Wes did not cause this injury in any way and he has done everything in his power to restore his health.

And please pray for James' heart.  He yearns to be a big brother.  It saddens him greatly for our adoption to be postponed.  I often wonder if we should have kept more of this from him to protect him.

Thank you all for your love and support.  I cannot articulate how much it means.

Auction Update!

Wow, wow, wow!  We have witnessed so much generosity thus far from those who have donated items to our Facebook Adoption Auction coming up November 14-17!

We have 43 totally awesome confirmed items, which is half way to our goal of 100 items!!!  We continue to follow up and reach out to new people each day.

We have run into one obstacle.  We originally hoped about half of our auction items would come from our networks and the other half would come from local businesses.  Unfortuatenly, 90% of the businesses we have reached out to have already met their donation maximum for 2016.  We did not anticipate that!

However, we continue to hold fast to our goal of 100 items to raise $10,000 for our adoption, but we need some help!  Here are the two main way you can help right now:

- Consider donating an item!  Perhaps you have an idea of your own.  If not, we can give you idea for any price range! The item can either be mailed or delivered locally (wherever you live!).
- Reach out to your network for donations; we had a dear friend do that this week and she rounded up a weekend cabin stay and a piece of artwork custom made by a professional artist!  Click here for a flyer you can share!

Thanks for sharing this adventure with us.  It will be two years on December 29 since we started this journey (although we took March-September completely off from fundraising this year).  When my faith wavers, God sends the sweetest reminders of his sovereignty in this journey.  Of course I pray we will have a baby in our home sometime in 2017; I am not sure how many more days I can tell look at James' big brown eyes and tell him that "we are working on it".  I should really start saying "God is working on it".  He has started making up imaginary siblings...  That kid LOVES babies!

What's Next with Our Adoption?!

Many of you have lovingly inquired about our adoption this month so I figured it is time for an update!

For those of you who have been following our adoption journey, you know we hit the "pause" button earlier this year due to a multitude of circumstances.  Waiting has been gut-wrenching, especially with a three year old who asks about a sibling EVERY.SINGLE.DAY.

We wanted to be available when the time came for Darwin to go Home.  He passed away peacefully at home surrounded by a multitude of family and friends at the end of May.  Tears pour down my face as I write that sentence.  The tears continue to flow because Wes' dad and my dad continue to have chronic, life-threatening health conditions.  We want to be present to support them as well.  But we know we cannot hit pause indefinitely.  God planted the desire to grow our family deep within us.

And thankfully, Wes' health continues to improve, although we believe he will always need to be vigilant about over exertion and rest.  The road to health has been more like a rollercoaster, but when we look back at where Wes was seven to eight months ago, gratitude abounds.  A night and day difference.  A tangible case of God making all things new, transforming death into life.

So what now?  How do we hit PLAY again?  The short answer: FUNDRAISING.  $8,000 down, $17,000 to go.  Can I just put something out there?  I loathe fundraising.  That may surprise some of you because I have done a heck of a lot of it.  I have been doing fundraising for half my life: mission trips to Mexico, hurricane relief trips, trying to save a pre-school, sending high schoolers to Young Life camp, Wes' salary when he was on staff with a church plant...the list goes on.  Perhaps I have always had a lot of passion but not the pocketbook.  To fundraise again, I must cast off my pride and be obedient to God. (To be clear, I have not stopped praying that $17,000 would fall out of the sky instead.)

So here's the vision:
- Facebook auction with 100 items
- November 14-17 (great timing for Christmas gifts!!!)
- Raise $10,000 so we can do our home study in the first quarter of 2017 (the home study itself is not that expensive but a lot of our fees would hit around that time)
- A lot of paperwork and a lot of prayers...and probably more waiting.

Many of you have kindly asked how you can help :):
1. Donate something to our auction!
2. Invite friends to our auction group on Facebook!
3. Purchase something from our auction!

More than anything, WE NEED YOUR PRAYERS!  A lot of decisions will arise along the way, and we yearn for the wisdom and discernment that only comes from God.  Thank you, thank you, thank you for your love and support!

Timing is Everything

I have written and re-written post.  I do not know why it has been so hard.  Perhaps because I like things to go according to (my) plan, but life rarely works that way.

Here's the short version: we have postponed our adoption home study until at least January 2017.

Here's the long version:
Despite several red flags, we kept plowing forward with the adoption because it is a dream so deep in our hearts and we really wanted our adopted baby to be close-ish in age to James.  The truth of the matter is that Wes' health was quickly declining. So so thankfully, he finally has a proper diagnosis and is on the road to recovery (click here to read more).  The details of that recovery need to be the primary focus of 2016 for us.

Additionally, Wes' beloved step-dad Darwin (who lives in Mississippi) will soon leave us here and go Home.  We want to be available during his final days.  We want to be available for Beverly after he passes.

Wes' dad (who also lives in Mississippi) is also facing some very serious and life-threatening health issues.  And so is my dad.  We want to be available to support them as well.

After much discussion and prayer, we have decided to postpone our adoption home study until at least January 2017.  While we are sad, we are also at peace with waiting.  We have an incredible three year old to enjoy and invest in.  And we a lot of plates spinning this year.  Adoption is still deeply rooted in our hearts and we still very much intend to grow our family through adoption.

So far, we have raised $8,000 (YAY and THANK YOU!) for our adoption.  We will continue to chip away at the other $17,000 we need to raise.  We will likely do a summer and fall fundraiser to well prepare us for January 2017.  And we will also continue to pray that $17,000 falls out of the sky ;).

Please please pray for us.  Please please encourage us.  We need it.  This ride has been quite the roller coaster.  My heart feels an abundance of love for a baby who likely has not even been conceived yet.  I remind myself each day that every "obstacle" will change the timing of our adoption, which will determine which baby joins our family.  That is INCREDIBLE.

Thank you for walking along side us in this journey.  It truly takes a village...

Waiting...

Many have asked for an update, so I figured I bet jump on and post one...

Right now is a season of working and waiting.  Working to fundraise and pay off debt.  We learned that our medical debt (while we have never missed a payment), could keep us from passing our home study, as I also have student loans.  So this Spring we will work tirelessly to pay off $10,000 in debt.  How you say?  Wildtree income and a miracle...

 

 

My heart is filled with longing and brokenness (very fitting for this Advent season).  Medical debt aside, we could have started our home study as early as November and been matched with a birth mother as early as January/February.  But instead we wait...

 

 

I know most adoptive families experience a long wait, but I cannot help but think: those who carry a child know (give or take a couple weeks) when the baby will arrive.  That is not the same with adoption.  The waiting period is so variable.

 

 

So keep us in your prayers.  We will embarking on another large fundraiser in the New Year.  In January we will get organized and the fundraiser will be held the first week in February.  It will be a Facebook auction. Please let us know if you have something to contribute!  It can be an item or a service.  For example, my friend Brandy will be donating ball room dancing lessons.  Wes donated his knife sharpening services for another friend's adoption auction.  Time at a family cabin could be donated.  The sky is the limit!!!

 

 

We appreciate the support and love.  We trust that all these "obstacles" are part of God's plan, as the timing will greatly affect which baby comes home with us.

 

 

Love,
Wes, Laura, & James

 

 

 

Our adoption: help us raise $20,000 in 20 Days!

 

October 1, 2015

Dear Family and Friends:

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this letter.  As many of you know, we have begun the journey of adding another child to our family through adoption.  God placed adoption on our hearts from the very beginning of our relationship when we knew Laura may not be able to conceive.  Furthermore, we have long resonated with the truth that God adopted us into His family and we want to adopt a child into ours.  God blessed us abundantly with James, but with Laura's high-risk pregnancy, our desire to adopt was confirmed.

We prayed for months about which adoption route to take.  Through the encouragement of friends, we have chosen to do a private closed adoption through an attorney in Florida.  We would be glad to discuss why we chose Florida over Colorado with anyone interested, but we want to keep this letter as brief as possible as to not bore anyone :).

 We need to raise $25,750 for our adoption.  We want to be transparent about where every dollar is going, so please see the attached financial breakdown.  We would love for you to partner with us financially in giving a child a home.  This letter marks the beginning of our fundraising campaign "$20,000 in 20 Days", which will hopefully raise the majority of our funds.  Our goal is to get 1,000 people to donate $20 a piece in 20 days (October 1-20)!!!  Here's how you can get involved:

 
1. Donate $20 online at www.youcaring.com/anotherlittlestrebeck or mail a check made out to C. Wesley and Laura Strebeck to 4431 O'Brien Drive Loveland, CO 80528.  Please write "adoption" in the memo line.  Feel like you could donate more than $20?  Consider donating $20 for each person in your household.

2. If you are on Facebook, please add your friends to our "$20,000 in 20 Days" event. If you do so, please contact them via phone, text, or Facebook messenger to point them to the event.  Also, feel free to forward our fundraising e-mail or talk to your friends in person (postcards available to hand out upon request).

3. PRAY PRAY PRAY! Please pray for the three of us, our future baby and his/her biological parents, and our adoption attorney.

4.  Raising a child takes a village!  We hope you will be part of that village when our baby arrives.

Again, thank you for taking the time to read this letter.  We would love to discuss any and all questions that you have via phone or in person.  Please feel free to reach out to us.

 

With love and gratitude,

Wes, Laura, and James Strebeck

 

 

Wes: 303-656-5512, w.strebeck@gmail.com

Laura: 970-749-6932, laura.strebeck@gmail.com


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Adoption: Financial Breakdown

Attorney fees: $10,000

Biological mother support: $8,500

Home study: $2,000

Interstate Compact for Child Placement (ICPC) forms: $2,000

Plane tickets for Wes, Laura, & James to Florida when the baby is born: $1,000

Hotel for three weeks in Florida: $1,500

Rental car for three weeks in Florida: $750

Grand total: $25,750

***In the event that we fundraise over $25,750,
the overage will be put into a savings account for our adopted baby.***

A Twinkle In My Eye

So here is the crazy thing about adoption.  We are still (at least) a year or two from being matched with a baby.  It is likely that our baby has not even been conceived yet.  That means I think about a baby everyday that does not yet exist.

For now, sweet little baby, you are a twinkle in my eye.

PS- James keeps asking for a girl baby (and we are not specifying).  "Want girl baby, want girl baby, Mommy."